| Teenagers |
[Jun. 9th, 2007|12:20 am] |
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| |  cant sleep | ] |
They're gonna clean up your looks
with all the lies in the books
to make a citizen out of you
because they sleep with a gun and keep an eye on you, son
so they can watch all the things you do
because the drugs never work
they're gonna give you a smirk
'cause they got methods of keeping you clean
they're gonna rip up your heads,
your aspirations to shreds
another cog in the muder machine
they said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
they could care less as long as someone'll bleed
so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
the boys and girls in the clique
the awful names that they stick
you're never gonna fit in much, kid
but if you're troubled and hurt
what you got under your shirt
will make them pay for the things that they did
they said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
they could care less as long as someone'll bleed
so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
maybe they'll leave you along but not me
ohhh yeah!
they sai all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
they could care less as long as someone'll bleed
so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
maybe they'll leave you alone but not me
all together now!
teenagers scare the living shit out of me
they could care less as long as someone''ll bleed
so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
teenagers scare the living shit out of me
they could care less as long as someone'll bleed
so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
i pretty much love this song...its terrible.. |
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| I know you're nothing but lies; and i still can't get enough of you. |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|05:50 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | My house | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | hyper but tired.. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Morgan Marx | ] |
Somewhere between all our laughs, long talks, stupid little fights, and all our jokes, i fell in love.
To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
Somethings in life are worth waiting for...even if it means waiting for ever.
You don't have to be together for him to break your heart.
It hurts when you have someone in your heart, but you can't have them in your arms.
Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship Never.
The best proof of love is trust.
When somebody loves you everything is beautiful. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2006|04:19 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my kitchen | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | teenage dirtbag | ] |
So i came home sick from school. Today pretty much sucked balls! and yeah.
i love chicken flavored ramen. but i can only eat it when i'm home sick, so i had some today and it was delicious!
and so i called in sick to work, cole couldn't work for me and either could cody, so i called jamie, and thank god...he'll work for me. granted i feel a bit better, but i don't feel like going to work sick, and if i do have something, expose all those people...okay so like 4 people to it...
and i'm really bored and for once in the past two days, i'm really hot. my dad fixed the wood stove, so thats going and i'm really HOT! unlike today when i was actually at school, i couldn't warm up, and usually i'm warm in school..
but this is kind of pointless
so.... |
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[Sep. 17th, 2006|09:36 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my house | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | motion city soundtrack | ] |
Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where
Your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter
In the base of my spine
Sweet like a chic a cherry cola
I dont need to try and explain
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again I might move
So slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face
Of the human cannonball
That I need to I want to
Come stand a little bit closer
Breath in and get a bit higher
Youll never know what hit you
When I get to you
Ooh I want you
I dont know if I need you
But ooh Id die to find out
Ooh I want you
I dont know if I need you
But ooh Id die to find out
hehe...i love those lyrics...:p
kyle |
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[Sep. 5th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
Wow, i'm really tired..i didn't get much sleep in the past week or so, and haven't exactly caughten up on my sleep yet...
and school friggen sucks! i don't have anyone to talk to in my 7th hour class....which is...geometry, and i have not one person i talk to in that class, they're all stupid sophmores who i can't stand...and stupid juniors who have frickin money....and no one who will talk to me..
so i think i'll transfer out of my world geography class and take Geometry that hour and then take political systems 7th hour...
but yeah, i'm going to go hang out with sarah now, so uh...
...END...
kyle |
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| Wow, I'm in such a Great Mood today! |
[Aug. 27th, 2006|06:00 pm] |
Wow, it's crazy weird how much of a great mood i'm in. It's been a long time since i've been a a truly great mood. I'm actually kind of scared of how happy i am. its like nothing could bring me down, not even my mom screaming at me could ruin my mood, its so weird. but i'm not complaining, i avtually really like it.
on the down side though, i'm starting to bit my nails again. Its been almost two weeks since i've bitten them, and i started to last night. i'm now kind of angry...but not.
love
kyle |
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|09:58 am] |
I want it to rain so much,i love the rain, except for the fact that you can't do much outside, which means i'll be home with my abusive mother. oh joy!
when i say abusive, i don't exactly mean she hits me or anything,(not that i don't think that one day she will though), but she likes to hit and kick my dogs, and then wonders why i get upset, HELLO?!!?! THAT'S ANIMAL ABUSE/CRUELITY!!!! duh, sometimes i wish she'd hit me instead of them..but she does hit my little sister...and she does yell A LOT!
it got so bad last night, that i walked around town for hours..well i started out walking, then aislin picked me up then we got kerry and went to malone where we found lauren and nick, and patrick. and we were there for hours.
my mom called me and wanted to know where i was and crap, because she hadn't heard from me or seen me sincei left the house...yeah well that was the plan you stupid duche...i left so i didn't have to see or hear you...
and i can't really leave today, because kevin isn't home to watch jessie, so i have to.
he's helping jody move her crap from where ever it is she's living at the moment, to i don't know where... because she basically got evictied... and can't find a place to live, so she'll be living out of her car.
and i know this is cold of me but i don't care... she should have thought about where she was gonna live before she stopped paying her rent and other bills... i don't feel sorry for her, although i don't like her...and we've never gotten a long...and it's a good thing that she didn't ask me to help her move, because i would've said no. i don't want to sleep in her house where her cats and dog go to the bathroom where ever they please... but kevin said yes, that poor kid. oh, well, he could have said no.
i have to go to school today, and change my schedule... oh the other day, my mom said that she'd be able to buy me school clothes,and crap, but the next day she said that we couldn't, and then today, she just said that we can't pay our bills and that we can't even buy food.. WHAT THE HELL! where is our money going to? Jody? cause if so i'm going to be pissed. i mean shes 32 fucking years old, she shoud be able to take care of herself.
but yeah, this is long and if you've read it all, wow, thats amazing!
kyle |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|04:42 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my house | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | broken ~ amy lee and seether | ] |
Why am i up? it's 4:45 am, and i've been awake for an hour thinking...i hate thinking because i get in a bad mood, and the last time i was in a bad mood something happpened, and thats all i can think about.
how could you get mad at me for being in a depressed mood?
you have those moods too, actually you used to have them quite offten.
but was i ever mad at you for it...?
.....no, i was completely okay with it, in the hopes that if i was ever in a bad mood, that you would understand, or at least try to.
and not give up on me.
and not be angry with me, so much so that you just completely ignore everything.
it hurts, it really does.
but i've come to the realization, that you obviously don't care.
because if you did, you wouldn't be doing this,
or you'd atleast let me explain.
but i'm doubting you will, but if you will, let me know.
i'd love to explain, maybe then you'd understand a little bit at least, and i'd be able to sleep at night, instead of being awake thinking, and then almost crying.
but whatever.
~katje~ |
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[Aug. 20th, 2006|10:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kerry's living room | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | every me every you ~ placebo | ] |
sucker love is heaven sent you pucker up or passion's spent my hearts a tart, your body's rent my body's broken, yours is bent
carve your name into my arm instead of stressed i lie here charmed 'cause there's nothing else to do every me and every you
sucker love a box i choose no other box i choose to use another love i would abuse no circumstances could excuse in the shape of things to come to much poison come undone 'cause there's nothing else to do every me and every you every me
sucker love is known to swing prone to cling and waste these things pucker up for heavens sake there's never been so much at stake i serve my head up on a plate its only comfort, calling late 'cause there's nothing else to do every me and every you every me and every you every me every me and every you, every me
like the naked less the blind i know i'm selfish i'm unkind sucker love i always find someone to bruise and leave behind all alone in space and time there's nothing here but what here's mine something borrowed, something blue every me and every you every me and every you every me every me and every you every me every me every me every me
i really like this song right now....in fact i can't get it out of my head, and it sucks ... a lot!
hmm...well i think i'm going to go now, so yeah,
oh, i'm auditioning for prarie fire tomorrow...wow..me acting, it's been over a year.wow...weird.
kyle |
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[Aug. 18th, 2006|07:43 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my house | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | every you, every me ~ Placebo | ] |
why is it that whenever i think i get really depressed?
maybe i should just stop thinking...
although sometimes its nice to be in a bad mood...but right now is NOT one of those times.
right now i wish i was in a good mood, and that everything was okay, but i'm not and its not so..yeah |
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| hmmm....thoughts of a late night or early morning...either way its 1:25 am |
[Aug. 13th, 2006|01:21 am] |
So I was talking to my dad today, and we were talking about he and my mom getting a divorice.... is it bad that i really really want them to? hmm...i kind of feel bad about it, but not at the same time..
well, i'd go with my dad,
we'd move to a farm (which would be so cool)
i could pretty much do whatever i wanted,
my mom wouldn't be around...
i could get a four wheeler..yay!!!
i would pretty much take care of myself most of the time,
which really wouldn't bother me,
my mom can afford to give my sister jody a shit load of money to do god knows what, but she can't afford to buy me school clothes..i have less than $100 dollars and she wants me to buy them all, i can only afford like 3 pair of pants if i'm lucky...oh yeah did i mention that i'm NOT lucky...ever!
so i'm sitting here at kerry's once again, (not that thats a bad thing)watching dirty love for the second time tonight, and i seriously can't pay attention...so i'm typing this...and its taking me forever...i keep dazing off.
...and i love my sex... hehehe..that song is in the movie..
so apparently kerry and chris sparks are going to attempt to "hook me up" with Barry johnson from work...its kind of weird...
ooo...well, i think that i'm goig to go so...you all have a good night...why am i so hyper/awake...at like 2 in the a m when i'm usually dead tired...?
love
kyle |
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| ...vacation... |
[Aug. 12th, 2006|07:00 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my kitchen | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | depressed now...*sigh* will.. | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | disposable teens ~ marilyn manson | ] |
well, i've been back from vacation for a week now, and am just finally writing about it...wow shows how motivated i am.
well,i'll just hit major points...
saturday: got there unpacked...got stung by a bee...watched a movie
sunday: swam, saw will, had a bonfire
monday: swam, had a bonfire, got drunk with will and jenny
tuesday: went to nissawa, painted rocks with little kyilie and eli(they're so cute, kyilie is 7 and eli is 5), watched shes the man with jenny in the gazebo, and then gillmore girls in the cabin, sat outside by myself in the dark for an hour...and talked to patrick and sarah...for like ever
wednesday: swam,had a bonfire, had a "cook out" type thing with all the cabin people and the owners of the resort, and will's parents, drank with will, we both...wow...he had to walk me to a cabin so i could pee twice, and then walk me up to my cabin, i apparently kept jenny awake talking...but i don't remember that.
thursday: swam with will, will ate dinner with us, went to a demoliton derby with will's mom and nephew...and jenny. (notice not will..he was too hung over)
friday: swam, had a bonfire, got jenny drunk, got drunk with will, and will and i had a long deep conversation for a couple of hours
saturday: woke up, packed up, called will and woke him up, fed the fish said our goodbyes, went to nissawa, bought souviners, bought ice cream and left
needless to say i drank every night, not a lot every night, but it was fun..and i miss will so much, we're really close, and he'll hopefully come down this year. it should be easier since he's in college and only has two classes this semester, and his friends will take notes for him, and he can drive now.
well i have to go clean the bathroom now...
kyle |
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[Aug. 5th, 2006|11:01 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | kerry's room | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | kerry singing | ] |
well i arrived home from vacation this afternoon around 4:30...went to the play witch i thought was extreamly stupid...and went to dairy queen and got extreamly pissed off, so now i'm sitting at kerry's using her labtop.
i miss will so much, its not even funny! and it's only been about 13 hours 43 minutes...since i've seen him. i love that kid so much. and i only get to see him once a year, and that stinks but there really isn't anything i can do about it...i think i might head home, and go to bed, i'm really tired, and don't feel like typing any longer.
more about my vacation later...
juar know that jenny sucks!
i fucked up, i'm sorry i messed everything up, and i know it.
love
kyle |
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[Jul. 24th, 2006|11:29 pm] |
wow, i've realized that i've become very emotional lately, and i don't like it one bit.
like yesterday i was watching A Walk To Remember on tv, and i know how the movie ends, and yet i still found myself cying..
and then if that wasn't bad enough, the song at the end of the movie, entitled "Cry" by Mandy Moore, makes me cry a lot, and so i went on the internet and found it and listened to it...and hey guess what... i cryed..
and then i went out and found other songs that make me cry and listened to them.
and lately i've just wanted to cry a lot, for numerous reasons...and it sucks. and i continue to hold the tears back, and i'm guessing thats not good either.
and i'm just and emotional wreck at the moment, and nobody to talk to...
i'm just happy that i have my computer back so i can at least vent...
well this pretty much sucks...and i have to work at 10 in the am, so i think i'm going to attempt to go to bed... |
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| what a loser i am... |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|12:46 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | home | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | seasons in the sun - by terry jacks | ] |
wow...i've realized how much of a loser i really am...and its pathetic...what do i have...hmm...pretty much nothing.
i can't hang out with some friends
others who i thought were my friends spy on me
a few talk shit behind my back, which used to bother me, but it really doesn't anymore..
a couple i don't even see anymore..
some are leaving and i'll probably never see them again...because they're moving out of state.
i've got this 40 year old woman who thinks i want her husband (who by the way is 20 years older than me...)thats discusting!
i've one friend who likes me, but wait hes engaged...wouldn't you know it....
yup thats pretty much it.
its actually kind of funny if you think about it...we used to be such good friends, but the past year has torn most of us apart, and yet brought a few of us closer...its weird how that works out isn't it?
anyway i just needed to say some things and now i'm done so...i'll go i guess
good night, love
kyle |
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